
When you have fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome, you’re forced to make a lot of changes in your life, to accommodate your symptoms. It’s also important for us to make changes to help alleviate our symptoms, but that leads to a whole new set of problems.
Right now, I’m facing an issue with self-discipline. About 6 weeks ago, I decided I absolutely had to loose a few pounds before traveling to my cousin’s wedding. I ate mostly fruits and vegetables, whole grains and lean meats. I stayed away from processed sugar. I tracked my food intake through About.com’s Calorie Count to make sure I was getting the nutrients I need while sticking to a low-calorie regimen.
Not only did I lose 5.5 pounds in less than 2 weeks, I felt amazing. I had about double my normal energy and tons of motivation. I’d find myself smiling and humming for no particular reason. I had more patience with my kids. It was awesome! Then came vacation.
As I wrote about a few weeks ago, I really didn’t take proper care of myself for those 5 days — especially when it came to my diet. I had a worse flare than I expected when I got home, and as we all know, it’s really hard to eat right during those times. I went back to my old habits of eating convenience foods and sugary snacks that make me feel better for a short time, and then worse.
I know exactly what I need to do to get myself feeling better: eat right. It seems so simple, and yet I haven’t had the self-discipline for the last couple of weeks to do it. I keep telling myself I’ll start tomorrow, but it doesn’t happen.
That’s one of the many problems with these conditions — they stamp out your motivation. Part of it is the lack of energy, and part of it is that we often know we’ll face consequences for the things we do. It’s a constant balancing act, wondering whether you’ll be able to do the dishes today and still make it to your doctor’s appointment tomorrow. Another part of it — the part that’s the biggest stumbling block for me right now — is mental. I’ve learned to fear change.
Why? Because when fibromyalgia became a part of my life, change became really hard. When you’ve got brain fog, it’s easiest to operate on auto-pilot. I’ve done that with my diet for several years now, always eating and buying the same things because I don’t have to think about it. When I was on the better diet, I kept forgetting what I should eat for breakfast. I’d get hungry for lunch and get feeling a little panicky because I didn’t know what I should eat. I had to branch out when it came to dinners that were healthy and worked for my whole family, looking up recipes and trying new things.
I’m far enough into recovery to do those things physically (at least on most days), and I know that. Academically, I know that I can handle them mentally as well, but my brain is having trouble getting that point through to my emotions. When I think back a few years, I can see how much more difficult it would have been, but I wish I’d had the self-discipline to make the changes then — who knows how much faster my recovery would have been?
As I continue to feel sluggish and achy, however, my desire to get back those good feelings is growing stronger. I’m trying not to lose faith in myself and being positive about getting back into the good habits that I know I need to stick with. I’m certain I’ll get started soon … maybe tomorrow.
Are you having problems with the self-discipline to make positive changes in your life? Have you made some good changes? How did you do it? Leave your comments below!
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Change & Self-Discipline With Fibromyalgia & Chronic Fatigue Syndrome originally appeared on About.com Fibromyalgia & Chronic Fatigue Syndrome on Thursday, June 24th, 2010 at 06:00:29.
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